Sekali-kali, coba dihadapi dan diterima saja semua kekuranganmu di mata orang lain yang sempat disampaikan kepadamu. Jangan terus menampik dan melindungi diri seolah-olah kamu sudah mengerti apa yang orang lain katakan tentangmu, atau seolah-olah kamu sudah mengerti tentangmu. Iya, kamu mengerti tentangmu. Mungkin orang lain tidak semengerti kamu kalau menyangkut soal kamu. Seperti kata pepatah, jangan suka mengatai orang lain, kamu 'kan tidak tahu apa yang sudah dilalui orang itu , berarti orang lain perlu berpikir seperti itu terhadapmu, 'kan? Pusing-pusing amat, memikirkan seharusnya orang berlaku seperti apa terhadapmu, berkata apa tentangmu. Tapi, yang orang lain katakan tentangmu bisa jadi benar, dan kamu bisa berkaca dari apa yang orang lain katakan tentangmu. Apa ya, istilahnya? Oh iya. Blind spot . Titik buta. Kamu juga punya, 'kan? Mungkin seseorang akan berkata tentang suatu kekuranganmu yang belum pernah kamu ketahui sebelumnya, kapan dan dimana saja. Bila kamu...
Argh, not today again. Things are a bit settled down now. The thing is, it's half an hour past midnight. How am I gonna do well for the exam when I start studying past midnight every day for a week? I take the seat. "Well, what is it again tonight?" "It keeps happening. Seems like I lost my time all the time. They keep taking mine." "Do you take my advice to devour every little piece of the in-betweens?" "I just.. can't. I have this sort of understanding that I only can start studying and take care of my well-beings when everything's gone and settled down. Nighttime, the answer is. It's commonly quiet and not busy. I got little to no orders or expectations to fulfill." "What is the correlation to my advice, then?" "When it is not the time, I won't do any studying. Once I do, I have to have all eyes on the material without any disturbance." "You're not taking my advice well, then, I guess." ...
"Hey, please help me with this. It will take some time, I hope it won't bother you." "I want to, but I'm in the middle of my own business. Sorry." "It's okay, take your time." Are you sure you really need to say you're on your own business? They need your help. Doesn't matter they say it explicitly or implicitly, they need your help. Maybe an important and urgent one. And you just gonna toss away? I know you feel guilty and selfish now, right? You can do your own later. Think about it, you will definitely feel sorry and angry to yourself later for 'wasting' your time in this other people's business when yours are abandoned, like, for ever? When are you gonna think about yourself? When you are apart from anyone else? You will never. They are not even forcing you to spare your time for them. This is the chance to take care of yourself. The world doesn't go around everyone that is except you. Let go. Accomplish your goals. ...
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