50 sounds like a huge deal

50 sounds like a huge deal. You said you like to play safe, but what is safe, from stories about your whole struggle to be in this safe position?

You are so silent, yet you endure so many things. How can you endure so many things for 50 years and still be so composed? How can you be so patient, just how vast your dam is?

You look so tired everyday, yet you wash dishes and hang clothes to dry, chasing every of our wishes to be served on the table. How can you endure so many things for 50 years and still be so composed?

Sometimes I think of how come you don't understand us at times, but I realized that it should be how come I don't understand you yet. Sometimes I wish you are an open book, but I realized that you already are, and I should learn the language beforehand. It may took forever but I promise that I will learn forever.

50 sounds like a huge deal. It feels like, things will change so much in a short time. What am I without all your constant support unsaid? I thank you every time you accommodate me, but until when I will thank you? 50 is yours but I am worried myself like it is mine too.

Please keep on giving us lectures after dinner. Please keep on giving us the jokes as dad as possible. Please keep on assuring us that we soon will be stable and composed like you. Please stay healthy and eat a lot of good food. Please keep being calm and patient in the middle of our chaos. Please keep on believing that we can bring you peace after all you've been through, as soon as possible. 

Barakallah.

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